How I love you!

     You hear your baby cry.  You know, that is a hurt cry... a sleepy cry.... a "I want" cry... As mothers our job is to learn our babies.  To meet their every need. You learn their likes, dislikes, bed times, eating times, all of this you do with your baby.  You both learn. They in return learn you.  They learn their bedroom.  Their home.. Their toys.. Love.. God's peace. Their safe spot in this world. 

     I don't want to write to many details in what is going on in our life, but I do want to speak our love for our sweet Adrian and his for us.  The other night he threw up in his bed.  Kelley held him as I changed the bed.  The whole time Adrian was reaching for me, crying.. All he wanted was his momma.  I laid with him until he feel asleep.  Tears fell down my face.. What would he do without me.  Without his momma.  We all know there are times as a kid and as an adult that you just want your momma.  Sure he could grow that with his biological mother.  We want that.. just not in a way of stripping him from his only safe place.

     Adrian started speech therapy this month.  He tested at an 11 month old level, he is now 17 months.  We want to help him in anyway we can.  We do not want him to be interrupted with big life changes as his little mind is learning thousands of new things a day. We do not want a back and forth, from this house to that house, life for him.. He is doing so great with his family he has grown to love.  He has changed from a baby who was pale, limp, with sores all over his body to full of life, the happiest any parent could wish for their child.

     We never want Adrian or both of our girls to grow up with a hole in their heart.  To be a parent it means to put yourself below others.  We will fight! We are parents, God called us to be!  In a perfect world Adrian would have all of those who love him available in his life without the threat to his happiness.

     Adrian, I love it when you get one of your favorite snacks and your face lights up!  I love when you grab my finger and take me to where you want to go.  I love folding your clothes, such a blessing.  I love the way you say "My Momma"!  I love that you need me and your daddy.  I love how you run to the door when we say "Daddy's home!"  I love how you reach to kiss your sisters all of the time.  I love to watch you dance.  I love to watch you sleep in my arms.  I love when you pass gas, you find it so funny at times, yet embarrassing at other times.  I love everything about you! You smile...

     No mater what our road together comes to, I want you to know that you are so loved.  You have a momma, a daddy, and two sisters that will always greet you with open arms.  You are our baby!  Our love for you the first day we meet you was something that I nor your Daddy could ever explain.  Walk on baby boy! Always keep your head up high and know you are better than anything that comes within your path.  Keep that strong will you have and use it to be wonderful! Be all you can be!  Love God with all of your heart and you will grow into a great husband and daddy your self one day!