I have so much to catch up on with this blog, so... I will highlight the past year and write about it as it comes!
1) Had a failed contract on our house in Texas.
2) Moved back into that house in Texas.
3) Life is different, back in Pampa, Texas. But yet exactly the same. :(
4) 4 months after being back we were given Legal Guardianship of a baby boy!
5) This old momma is trying to get the hang of it all over again after 10 years! :)
Ok Of course I want to start this blog with the happiest thing!! So go down to #4! A couple of months ago there was talk that we might be taking care of a baby boy. The mother said she would not sign over guardianship, so we said no. If we were taking care of him we wanted to make sure we could 100%, do just that! So the day before Thanksgiving my sister and her husband got a call that the mother had left 4 month old twin boys and a 4 year old blind, autistic girl with a neighbor (who had CPS cases against them) as she was sent to prison for drugs. So my Brother in-law went and picked them all 3 up! 3 weeks later we were asked to take care of one of the babies. The mother has since signed over guardianship to my sister and I for the boys. We are in the process of getting that filed, then adoption will be next.
Our babies name is Adrian! Will be Adrian Scott Dewey! He is the happiest baby! Instead of crying he screams!! hahaha He has changed so much since we've got him! He was the twin who would set back and watch Carter, (brother). Today this baby has blossomed and loves exploring! He is just now realizing that he controls those hands and feet! He will be 6 months old next week!! We have had him a month now and are in love. He is in love with us I think as much as we are with him! It is amazing at the motherly bond I have with him! I have felt it from the call "Can you take him?" I haven't been able to work since we have had him, but plan to soon! So during the days it is just him and I! I love it at 3:00 when we pick up the girls! He lights up and laughs getting so excited when sisters get into the car! At 5:00 when Daddy gets home, I can say Daddy is home before Kelley even walks in the door and Adrian is screaming! It touches my heart so much!
It hurts me to think about this baby's life with out grandparents, two sisters and a daddy. His life has been changed for the good with just those things!! He is so loved! I think about his biological mother and get sick. The condition of these children when my brother in law picked them up was so overwhelming that no one wanted to even hold them till they were bathed. The boys have skin problems due to poor hygiene and it is a daily battle taking care of his condition, still for us. Thinking about the mother sets a flame off inside of me. These past few days have been awful thinking about it..
My biological father (who I have not talked to in years) has been in the hospital (an hour away) for a week and had heart surgery yesterday. We do not talk and I have no plans on it. I was told that if we (10-15 of his children) even show up at his funeral one day that we will be escorted away? First of all just like my baby boys biological mother, HOW CAN YOU HAVE CHILDREN AND NOT LOVE THEM? Saying that is not having children to have someone to LOVE YOU, but for you to LOVE THEM... Putting them before ANY FAMILY, DRINK, DRUG, WOMAN, OR MAN. Hearing about it from someone who had to see it on facebook that he was in such state, has brought me more anger to fight for my baby boy. Adrian is a Dewey, he is our son.. We will fight for him as long as it takes. I didn't even give birth to him. God took care of that kind of bound before we even walked him into our home.
Dear Adrian,
I have had a hole in my heart for the past 5 years. I have felt this overwhelming desire that I was to mother a son. I tried filling that hole and nothing worked.. It was like putting icing on a doughnut. The sweetness just fell right through the center. The first day I held you I felt this connection. It wasn't a dream or a fairy tale, it was so different. I had to control myself and keep those feeling to myself, because I was not asked to take care of you just yet.
A week or two went by and we were asked.. Daddy and I were so excited to be welcoming you to our family! (I am losing my train of thought right now, because you are upset in the swing, which you DO NOT like!) My commitment to you is that you will always know me as you Momma and you know Kelley as Daddy, we love you no mater what you do in life. We pray over you, that you are in Gods Gracious hands and that protection be over you as you succeed in life. We will try our hardest, the same as we have with Chelsea and Kayla, to do our best at raising you to love! Love is the most important thing in life and if you have it, no mater what life throws at you, you will walk by faith and not by sight! Faith is believing and our goal as parents is to help you to always believe.
God is already into our tomorrow!
Matthew 6:25-27 “Therefore I tell you, do not
be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink,
nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food,
and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they
neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father
feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by
being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
Jesus doesn’t mean that we’re not to plan ahead or do nothing about our
future. Rather, he’s saying simply, “Don’t be anxious or troubled about
tomorrow.” This has been my hope from day one of knowing you were becoming our son. I have faith that this is true! My mother carried my faith for a while when life was so hard for me. Know I will carry yours too. I write this so that you will some day read how much we love you! Welcome home baby boy! I set and watch you swinging nice and calm now, with tears rolling down my face, because of the joy you hold. You are a world changer the same as your two big sisters Chelsea and Kayla who love you to the moon and back.
Here is a special part of a book that my Momma read to me as a child, that I will soon get you to share with you like I have with Chelsea and Kayla.
I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living
my baby you'll be.
With a complete heart now, I love you,
Your Momma
