This morning I found myself wishing I was a "Who" on Horton's speck, as I was watching it with my kids. I posted on facebook how I wished that and a friend posted "But I am a "Who". When all in reality, I am just that, a "Who", just on God's speck! God carries us every minute of our day. He is my Horton!
I am not living in the past by bring up our past two years, but it is apart of our testimony today! More details are in previous blogs, but in a nut shell: My husband (Kelley) was laid off July 2011, we moved to Oklahoma in November, we were forced to move back to Texas 9 months later. Our dream was shattered. I am about adventure. Our family has been in what seems to be a hole for a couple of years. We prayed, asking God to please show us what to do, like we hear so many say "He has done for them and was very clear as to what to do". We asked God in February 2011, when we heard he may lose his job that if that is true than we will take that as He was opening a new chapter and we were to move on, Red River New Mexico was our first choice, but all of the doors were opened to Oklahoma.. So we said "Ok God, lets do this!" But after 9 months and having to move back was really hard for us to think about "What? But you sent us there??" The week we were having to come back was our vacation week... So we moved back and the next day we went on vacation! Had a great time and were very blessed to get that time with my husbands family! A week back home and Kelley was given a job from our friends until he could find something better!
Fast forward another year.... With working 8-5 every day, looking for another job was impossible. So online applications became my husbands new hobby.. :( boo... June 2013 He decided it was time to find a career he so desperately needs.. So we are without a career and on the search! Jobs are a thing of the past! It is time to find that place he can grow old in! Just like what he had, where he spent the past 12 years at!
It has been 2 weeks since an interview and it is so hard to wait.. People say be still and know He is God! We know that with everything in us He is God! We will not be still and know that man, is not... God has taken such good care of us, man has not. It is hard to pick what, when, where, and how life should be when man controls so much. God is in control, but I feel we as man, have messed everything up and have had to go down Gods second choice.
But you are not alone. In the midst of unspeakable sorrow God is with you. Even if you do not feel Him near, God is there. He promises to never leave you alone. Therefore, wherever you are, God is. He is with you before, during, and after "the storm," never losing sight of you, or your suffering. Even as you ponder how you will begin picking up the pieces of your life, God is there … loving you beyond understanding, holding you up, and making a way where it seems there is no way. Reach out for Him today. He is a very present help in times of trouble (Psalm 46:1).
After moving back into our house, we have had to replace the hot water heater, had termite problems, had AC unites go out, had a FIRE, received a baby, had to replace our roof, and all with an income that was government assistant approved, yet with out it's help. That my friends is how I know we are not alone!
Our family lived in a Hotel for 3 weeks after our fire. Man cheated us. God fed us! When I say this has been the loneliest times of our lives, it has been. From man. We do not have best friends that we share our lives with. Why? I don't know.. Don't feel this is not feeling loved by the friends we do have. We feel that very much! We have friends that we see at the store, He has his friends, I have mine, and friends we have from Church. But us as a couple do not have a married couple that we would call "OUR" best friends.. those that we have over for a BBQ, go on vacation with, and that our kids feel their kids are brother and sisters with. There is a whole in my heart for that. Being away from my family has been the hardest thing I've had to deal with. I have always lived close to at least one of them. My sister used to be my best friend. No one can every replace that. Nothing like acting stupid with your sister on a daily basis! Someone to tell me not to wear that dress, or that I need to get out and go get a coke with. I miss her, so much.
God has became so much to me. Without Him life would even be crazier than it is!! Every time we think the "Storm" has passed, we get reminders for some reason, that we are still very much in the middle of it. It does bring comfort to me knowing that God knows! He knows where, when, why, and how! We are his "WHO'S"!
Psalm 139:7-10 says, "I can never be lost to Your Spirit! I can never get away from my God! If I go up to heaven, You are there; if I go down to the place of the dead, You are there. If I ride the morning winds to the farthest oceans, even there Your hand will guide me, Your strength will support me"
Living the life, but searching for His dream!
