In His Hands: IN HIS HANDS, this is how I know.

No matter how God gives you a child to raise up in love, it is a very special thing. Even though life has been crazy this week today is my day to "ENJOY" housework without any kids home, it really hurts when all they want is you. I know minutes later they are fine, but this morning Adrian ran to the door behind me and when I got to the car I felt so blessed and happy that I am his momma! We take for granted a lot of things, such as moments like this. God would and will always take care of Adrian, but how would he be without me, without his Daddy, without his two sisters he is in love with? Something that I have had to push aside for months now and something I don't like to talk about. Whom shall I fear?

Psalm 27:1 The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

God is so powerful and has been a big part of my life, since I was a kid. He has never left me. He has pulled me out of some very dark times. He really thinks highly of me! With all 3 of my kids I can tell you exactly the things that makes them special and what God has shown me through them. I was 18 years old when Kelley and I found out that we were having Chelsea! He was there that day filling us with peace and joy! God was there the day we found out that Kayla had ADHD, the day we found out she had Dyslexia was also the day we found out that Adrian was coming to live with us! He was there! Minuets after getting the call about Adrian, I was setting in an office with 5 other women discussing Kayla's test results. I broke into tears.. God had me right there, right then! Those teachers were so great to me! God gave us children to raise up in His love, no mater our troubles or their troubles.

I pray daily for Adrian's biological mother. I want her to be active in his life.. I know she loves him. I have had to live without my dad in my life for the past 5 years. As an adult that has been hard. I never want Adrian to feel the hole I feel. I, as his momma, will protect him from anything that may put even a dent into his heart. I know the feelings of not being accepted. Adrian is one of the best gifts to our family. I just pray that he will always know and feel the love we have for him. To see him play with the girls is the happiest thing! They are his sisters! We did not understand the love we were getting into the day we brought him home. 2 weeks before that, the day I held him in my arms before we had even been asked to love this baby, I knew what I felt that day was something I will never forget. It was the same feeling I had the day I held Chelsea and Kayla, I just couldn't tell anyone! Adrian was just a 17 pound baby! :)

The day we first seen Adrian. Yes, I spell his name differently.

To Adrian's biological mother. If you ever read this, I want you to know that God is with us. He always is. Adrian is very much loved. As you have said before that he is "YOUR" blessing, know that we can be blessings to more than one. Adrian is very smart and very funny! God has big plans for him. He is doing wonderful and will always know of you. We ask nothing of Adrian, our job as parents and his family is to owe him everything. We pray for you daily and are so sorry for your circumstances. We just have to keep learning what he is teaching us. We are all in this world together. I love you dearly. We are in His hands!